The Life Of An Independent Babe...

Hush

2011-11-09T11:18:00.005+08:00

It's been a while since i stopped writing. Forgive me for that. No, i'll never neglect you on whatever circumstances. Not at all love.

Work is all fine for me. There are ups and down, i can't deny that. That's the facts of life. I'm living my life on the fast lane and i'm loving it every minutes! Always am looking forward to a brand new day! :)

I was back to my hometown over the weekend for Aidil Adha. I was in the kitchen when grandma approached me from behind.

"How are you been doing dear?"

I smiled "Surviving"

She tapped me on my shoulder, "Don't give up ok? There will always be someone for you out there"

Tell you the truth, I will never give up on love. I still believe in love.

Yes, i may have loved the wrong person before, like i did several times in my life. But doesn't mean that i'm giving up on everything.

Life goes on. I have already moved on, finally. But deep down inside, the pain is still there.

How can i ease the pain when i truly, sincerely loved him? I just cant afford to hate him.

Finally

2011-09-28T15:41:00.001+08:00

And today i've decided to move on finally. I don't wish to be part of your life anymore.

It hurts me so.

Love

2011-09-06T16:12:00.002+08:00

Someone asked me whether i want to pursue a new relationship.

My answer, "Not at the moment. I just don't have the time for now. My work requires my full attention. It's just like having a toddler, which requires you to spend 24/7 on him."

Nah, i always believe in love. It's just a matter of time when you will find that someone.

Love, always makes me feel alive.

Love, makes me look forward to each and every single day.

Love, makes me want to go to that extra mile.

Love, makes me want to dance.

I will never stop loving you, no matter what..... That's my promise sayang.

I'd Still

2011-08-22T17:52:00.003+08:00

There's no turning back. Let bygone be bygone.

I still can remember i was being swept away by you that night.

I still can remember the first time we danced. It was a dream come true for me.

I still can remember the way you look into my eyes, lovingly saying that i'm your sunshine.

I still can remember the time you carried me to the car. You were afraid i may spoiled my Jimmy's. It touched my soul with your kind gestures.

I still can remember the day when you introduced myself as your woman to all your family members. The best thing is, they accepted me well and i'd still love and respect them until now, no matter what happened.

I still can remember that night when you sang "Lady In Red" to me during one of your family dinner. Yes, i cried at once.

I still can remember the way you held me in your arms on the last night we spent together before i left for the Lion City. You promised, nothing can do us apart, except for life and death.

I have to accept the fact that life is not a box of chocolate. Certain things in life must come to an end. I was on cloud nine. I always tell myself, my life and my world evolves around you and you only. Never that i thought it could end up in this way.

Sayang, no matter how much you hate me, i never regretted myself of loving you. I learned a lot of things along the way. We went through thick and thin, we cried and laugh together. I appreciate our 2 1/2 together. I'd still care and love you, eventhough as a friend.

I'm much better now. I have to move on from the past. It was hard, believe me because i love him with all my heart and soul. I did my level best as his woman. I make thing happen for my man.

Part of me died with him. That's for sure.

Feel Me, Hear Me

2011-08-09T17:48:00.003+08:00

The start of Ramadhan this year i was hoping to go and buy food for dinner together like we used to do for the previous year.

But not this year.

The end.

I just need some time away, alone by myself. Might take a break for a week or two next week.

Au Revoir

2011-07-28T17:05:00.002+08:00

I'm on a hiatus mode for now. It won't be long, but i don't know when i will be back again on the blogging world.

Take care peeps!

The End

2011-05-17T21:35:00.003+08:00

Just feels like writing tonight.

I hate myself for loving him. Im not asking for the sky or the moon, but at least, some kind of respect towards me as a woman. What did i get?

As usual, i get a good scolding. He claimed that i'm asking for way to much.

You Give Love A Bad Name, that's for him....

I never demand anything from our relationship. I just want this relationship to be sealed in a marriage.

But when it comes to him, he takes things easily. He said that i'm rushing into things.

Come on, we are not a 20something year old kids. We are adult enough to make a wise decision when it comes to matters of the heart.

I'm not getting younger anymore, and so does him. I can't be waiting for another 5-10 years more. What if one day he decide to call it a quits? What's gonna happen to me and my life?

And tonight, i'm going to call it a quit. I can't take this anymore. This is too much and it's getting complicated without i realized it.

I still have my career to look forward to each day.

Musings

2011-03-17T20:59:00.002+08:00

I'm still with my cup of coffee. My second one to be exact.

Staring at the wall. And sometimes staring at the photo frames on my bedside table. Those smiling faces that belong to all the familiar faces in my life. Those who have walked through with me through thick and thin, and giving their never ending love and support towards moi.

I love you guys so much!

But when it comes to you, i'm not too sure. You tried to pick a fight with me just now.

I guess it's going to be few years for me to be here in the lion city. If things continues to be in this manner.

You can't change a person's behavior, just like you can't change your own blood type, do you?

Welcome 2011

2011-01-03T15:30:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!

We both had a good new year's celebration at Clarke Quay. Holding hands and smiling straight into each other's eyes.

Just can't wait to be back again. Am counting days.

I miss you so very much.

I Made It!

2010-12-11T00:32:00.005+08:00

Who says it was easy? Never.

The first time when i went for the interview, i knew it's not gonna be so e asy to pass through. But I made it.

Thank God... am blessed :)

And today, God's willing, I passed M5 paper, which is a very tough paper for all of us. We were given only 2 days to study the whole chapter, altogether is about 12 chapters. Imagine, to digest all 12 within 48 hours, plus minus your training and your makan time and bla, bla, bla.

Because i want to make this happen... so i went for it.

Alhamdulillah.

I passed!

Another 7 more papers to go. Well, i was certified in my home country before, but all the licenses were not certified here. A bit frustrated and disappointed if you were to ask me but hey, no pain no gain right?

I have went so far till here, might as well i'll do my very best.

It's either you break it, or you made it.

and yes, i made it!!!

I Shall Bid Farewell

2010-12-04T12:02:00.002+08:00

It's my last day in my home country, KL. Am having my breakfast with my prince charming. These moments of togetherness is very very important to me. I will only be seeing him again during the christmas eve.

Au Revoir my prince..... i shall kiss you goodbye in a bit. :((

My Ramblings

2010-11-22T00:32:00.004+08:00

In a week's time i'll be leaving everything that i have here.

My Bucuk...... pity him.... but tqvm for your love and support sweetheart. I really appreciate that very much. I know it's hard for me to leave you but honey, i'm doing this because of our future together. For our family that we gonna have later.

My beloved family members, thanks for the love and care........... i love u mom and dad.

I'm ready for Singapore now. Phewww!

I See, I Hear and I Write

2010-11-09T11:37:00.002+08:00

I woke up, feeling much better today. More energized.

Mom went for short shopping spree in the land of tom yam, together with her sisters. That was a gift from me to her before i leave this country for good. She has never been there, and was eager to go. I was supposed to join the troop but decided to stay in town and there are so many things to settle once and for all. I can't afford to loose even for a day.

Over the weekend, cousin M got married back in JB. I'm very happy for him, he has found his true match. She has a lovely wife to take care of him now. I have purchased two tickets to Maldives, for both of them as a wedding gift. :)

Met up with my BFF, Sue and her hubby for a drink on a saturday nite at Setia Tropika. It was really good to see those familiar face once again, it's good to be back actually. I know i will spend more time with them once i started my new job, just across the sea.

If you asked me, how do i feel now?

I know i'm gonna be sad to leave everything behind here in KL. But life goes on.

Au Revoir KL, and welcome to Lion City!

I'm Happy

2010-08-23T22:38:00.004+08:00

A good start for the week i would say. Managed to close a few more deals before Aidilfitri comes. I know it's going to be a busy week ahead but am not complaining at all. Am loving it!

Received a call from a dear friend this morning, requesting me to be her bridesmaid on her big day end of next month. Awwww...

"Darling, i want you to be just next to me on that day. You know how close we are after all these years?"

Indeed yes. We are so close that i believe we must have been separated at birth! We are so much alike!

I'm extremely happy for you dear Sue, you have found your prince charming. I do pray, that your marriage will be blessed by Allah The Almighty and we'll pray for your happiness.

I know i do feel sad that i will be apart from you, once you become 'Mrs X'.

But i'm happy darling, he's a very responsible man who will always love you and take care of you.

"So darling, when is your turn?"

She asked. Uh-uh.

I gushed. I tried to look behind me. Nothing.

"Time will tell. Only God knows"

and i smiled.

I just want to be happy, that's all am asking for in this life with my loved ones.

Get it?

2010-08-16T23:08:00.003+08:00

I thought it is going to be a better day for me but it wasn't.

I've tried to remain 'calm' and relax over what happened in the office. Trying my very best to just being me, who, will never, ever gets angry easily and never shout at people unnecessarily.

Nope, i'd still didn't shout at people even though how bad the other party treated me.

I won't, not to worry about it peeps.

For me, personally i think, i'll let you shout, i'll let you scream on top of your lungs. Let it out if you want to. No problem.

Because why?

You, yourself are at the losing end, whereas me, i'm the real winner.

I'll just do my work. and i hope you will shut your mouth from now onwards.

Get it?

and so the story goes

2010-05-11T00:10:00.001+08:00

I become heartless today. Thanks to you.

Good To Be Back

2010-05-02T16:08:00.002+08:00

I'm back peeps........ anybody home?

Almost Famous

2008-10-28T18:31:00.004+08:00

It was a very hectic day for me today. I took my lunch quite late and gulped my fried kuew tiaw like... ermm... less than 15 minutes i would say? Ha ha.. and my throat hurts. Starting from now i have to learn to take spicy food and drink less ice (well, i seldom take iced cold drinks, unless the day is very hot and humid). I have to preserve my voice. Ahem..

Hehe... i managed to get a new gadget for myself! That makes me smile till today! :)

~Sheryl needs to hit the gym soon, putting up a bit of weight now~

2008-09-28T04:10:00.001+08:00

Since I’ve first started working, no duit raya for me anymore from my relatives. No extra income to buy those nice handbags. Now it’s my turn to give moolah to my younger cousins and also my cousins who have kids. Hmmm…. Budget dah lari beb! Mamfusss….

Not much preparation from my side if you were asking me. This year everything is simple. I’ve made some budget for duit raya and cookies. I’ll be busy baking layered cakes tomorrow morning. If you want to see me a la nigella, you are most welcome to my abode. I’ll be extremely busy but not to worry my maid will open the door for you. But strictly, no cameras or video cameras are allowed. I’m still an amateur in the cooking field.

Tomorrow for sure I’m going to be ‘tortured’ by my mom who has spoken to me over the phone today.

‘When you come back tomorrow please help me to do a spring cleaning. Still have plenty of work need to be done’

‘Where are all the boys’ lah?’

‘Those cannot harap. They are busy doing their own things. The second one always wanted to go out and bla, bla, bla…’

Grrr… nanti korang. I will make sure that I’m well prepared to show them who are the woman in the house. I will kick, slap and belasah them once I’m home. Nanti kau!

By the way, I wonder why guys nowadays are so lazy? Is it because of their genes? Tell me something; at least it helps me to understand them better.

I’m still looking for kuih semprit… yummy! Anyone has semprit at home? Can I have some?

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI TO ALL MUSLIMS.

One teh tarik in the evening for me

2008-08-08T21:39:00.006+08:00

I'm tired. I'm serious about this.

Yes, i'm lack of sleep at this new place. I'm losing weight, again. Not too mention that. I rarely take my dinner after a long day. When you're exhausted, what else do you wish for? Definitely you'll be thinking of taking a hot bath and then straight you go to bed.

I managed to cut down on my coffee intake (yeayy!). Thank you very much to Aunty L who will make sure my warm water supply is on my table and also for helping me to clean up my table. Thank you for buying me that teh tarik just now. Oh, the mamk teh tarik called me by the name of Rani. Ha ha.... i wonder where did he managed to get the name. Maybe Rani was one of his old flames? Perhaps... :)

A lot of things has happened since i moved into this new place. A lot of responsibilities need to be carried since Day 1. Yesterday, i was chosen by the Head to be the representative of my division for our focus group. I will do my very best, that's my promise.

I won't be able to write that often after this. Do drop me a line whenever you need me.
p anymore ....

Can't wait for that 12 Dec 2008!

I'm Good, Thanks!

2008-07-11T18:21:00.005+08:00

I'm very comfortable at my new place. The smell of money is everywhere here, love it baby!

The color is purple. Guess purple is my color for now. I have to put pink aside, temporary.

Breakfast at Starbucks each day, i know it's not a good habit but i can't help it. I love the cheese, chicken and egg sandwich too. Their barista even remember my drink, thank you. Appreciate that.

I'm off for an intensive course early next month. If you ask me, how do i find my new place?

I'm falling in love all over again! Baby, baby falling in love. I'm falling in love again.... everyday i love you more and more and more..

That's the kind of feeling.

Goodbye

2008-07-04T09:44:00.007+08:00

My things has already been packed nicely in big boxes.

It's been 2 years, full of laughter and sadness. I cried, i wept, i laughed and i smiled. Altogether.

My 2 years of achivement:

1. I've become a Fund Manager

2. My clientele has expended.

3. I've reached my sales target of 5omil for the past 2 years. Still, i need to improve more on my skills and knowledge in this field.

4. I'm stronger and ehem, stubborn!

How time flies and i've grown up so fast.

I'm fully prepared to face a new chapter in my career. I'm ready and kicking!

A box of tissues ...

Definitely there will be loads of hugs and kisses by the end of the day.

and tears.....

I know i'll cry buckets for sure.

You Mean Everything To Me

2008-07-02T10:08:00.001+08:00

Never take things for granted. Love your parents as if there's no tomorrow.

When i'm back at my parent's, i'll make time to talk to mommy dearest and daddy darling. Even how tired i am. Even how busy i am. Even i don't have time for myself except during my sleep time. Period.

Friends used to call me mommy's girl, but i don't care. I love my mommy to bits. Once in a while i'll sleep with mommy (ahem!). Daddy is always gonna be the first man that i love the most. My future hubby is gonna be the second, sorry sweetheart, daddy dearest is always be the one.

Mom and dad, i love you!

Thank you so much for bringing me to this world. Thank you so much that i can be here with your love, care, and neverending support. I'm glad to have you as my parents.

I pray that they can watch their granchildren grow.

Lepaskan

2008-06-18T11:58:00.008+08:00

terus melangkah melupakanmu

belah hati perhatikan sikapmu

jalan pikiranmu buatku ragu

tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan

perlahan mimpi terasa menggangu

kucoba untuk terus menjauh

perlahan hatiku terbelenggu

kucoba untuk lanjutkan itu

engkau bukanlah segalaku

bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku

usai sudah semua berlalu

biar hujan menghapus jejakmu

lepaskan segalanya

engkau bukanlah segalanya

bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku

usai sudah semua berlalu

biar hujan menghapus jejakmu

Aku akan terus melangkah jauh ...

Baby's Gone Blues

2008-06-11T16:35:00.012+08:00

I'm happy.

Yes, i'm very happy.

In fact, i'm over cloud nine. Feels like dancing!.

What else can you ask for?

I'm blessed.

Life has never been happier like this.

She's so lucky.

That's me.

::Baby's gone blues::

Chocolate, Men, Coffee - Some things are better rich

2008-06-03T14:17:00.004+08:00

It was nice to meet up with you Ms. S. Even though it was just a teh tarik session, but we had a very good conversation, overall.

Overall. Yes, indeed.

He was my cream, i was his coffee. And when you poured us together, it was something..

Let men treat you like a princess. He treasures you the most. Doesn't mean that he has to spoil you rotten, but at least he knows how to pamper you.

I'd still have the copy of the book, 'He's not that into you'. It has become my handbook after all these years.

She introduced me to this book, "The Rules" by Ellen Fein and Sherrie Schneider.

Be a creature, unlike any other;

Show up to parties, dances and social events, even if you don not feel like it;

It's a fantasy relationship, unless a man asks you out;

If you're in a long-distance relationship, he must visit you at least three times before you visit him;

When considering whether to use personal ads or other dating services, you should place the ad and let men respond to you;

In an office romance, do not email him back every time he emails, unless it is business related;

If he does not call, he is not interested. PERIOD.

Close the deal - Rules women do not date men for more than two years;

Buyer beware - observe his behaviour so you do not end up with Mr. Wrong;

Keep doing the RULES even when things are slow.

Needles to say... men should be like coffee. Hot, sweet and strong!

Hail to The King!

2008-05-23T10:27:00.011+08:00

WE ARE 2007/08 EUROPEAN & PREMIER LEAGUE CHAMPIONS!

WE ARE THE RED DEVILS!

We are champions of Europe for the third time after a dramatic penalty shoot -out victory over Chelsea at the Luzhniki Stadium, Moscow.

Forty years after winning the European Cp at Wembley in 1968, and 50 years since the Munich tragedy, fate played a big part as a dramatic final in Moscow went to penalties.

After Cristiano Ronaldo had missed his kick for United, John Terry had the chance to win the cup for Chelasea, but the Blues skipper slipped on the run up and his penalty hit the post. After Anderson and Giggs, plus Kalou for Chelsea, then converted, Nicolas Anelka's sudden death shot was finally saved by Edwin van der Sar, sparking jubilant travelling contigent.

Cristiano had given Utd a 26th minute lead with a header from Wes Brown's cross in a first half which the Reds dominated. Carlos Teves had two clear chances to put United 2=0 ahead, but his efforts were well saved by Chelsea keeper Petr Cech, who also denied Michael Carrick.

Chelsea gained a foothold in the game in the final few minutes of the first half, and equalised with almost the last kick of the half, when a deflected Michael Essien shot fell kindly for Frank Lampard, who beat Rio Ferdinand and Van der Sar.

The Londoners dominated the second half and Didier Drogba struck the post, before Frank Lampard did likewise in extra time. Giggs, making a club-record breaking 759th appearance for the Reds, spurned United's best chance.

In the second period of extra time, Drogba was red carded for a slap (silly!) on Nemanja Vidic (ouch!), but despite the one man advantage, the Reds couldn't make the breakthrough on a heavy pitch, and so the final went to that heart-stopping penalty shoot-out.

Reds prosper on penalties. United 1, Chelsea 1 (6-5 on pens).

GLORY Man Utd!

The story of bagels and Ah Weng

2008-05-16T08:24:00.003+08:00

I love bagels! BAGELS! BAGELS!, i wanna have it!!!

It's a bit hard to get fresh bagels over here, unless you have to settle with the frozen ones from Cold Storage or you can get it over at the Coffee Bean outlets. I missed the bagels from the Starbucks at Atria. I missed Singapore the most!

I've a story to tell you guys. This is about my neighbour. Ssshhh don't tell him. We keep this hush hush ok?

This story is about Ah Weng, the next door neighbour. I know he is a Johorean, maybe because he drives an SUV with a registered Johor number. He lives with 2 other occupants, a guy and a female. He loves to cook as i can always smell the food from the kitchen. He cooks without a shirt on. Err.. nevermind, he doesn't have that six pack sort of body as he has a bit of bulging tummy. So i don't fancy to take a peek. Let it be.

Ah Weng likes karaoke too. Eh, we have the same hobby lah. He will invite all of his friends over and they will melalak till late at night, especially during the weekends. There are so many new faces and lots of shoes, sandals and slippers at his door mat. Macam party hujung minggu!

Recently, when i went back home, i noticed that his house is dark. No lights or whatsoever. How come? Where is the meriah home? There was one evening when i saw his front door was ajar and i saw the three of them were sitting on the floor, facing the balcony. In the dark.

Wah liao!

You know what fellas? Ah Weng is a smart person. Their electricity has been cut and you know how he manage to solve the problem?

He even 'borrowed' the electricity from the outside. Meaning, he will use the 4 pin cable and curik the electricity from the outside just to watch Astro.

Pandainye..

But i guess i'm smarter than him.

There was one morning, right before i go to work i switched off the cable.

and quickly ran as fast as i could!

Hehe.

Hopefully nobody ever saw me.

Holographic Universe

2008-04-09T10:32:00.006+08:00

Life is full of mysteries.

I never know what's in store for me but i believe God is fair.

I've tried my best to work things out. I'm transparent in what i do. I really want to work this out coz i know it's worth a million. I know i'm going to be very happy for the whole life.

I know it's tough. But being a Capricorn lady, she is a tough person. She won't give up that easily. She is born to be a fighter, from the inside. She may be soft from the outside but bot on the inside. Stubborn, but she knows how to control it. She knows what she wants.

Even how strong i am, i still need a man besides me. Someone whom i can confide in. Someone that sincerely loves me.

Someone that i can hold on to ..

* i'm listening to 'I Only Want To Be With You', by Shelby Lynne

His:Her

2008-03-25T15:26:00.005+08:00

What a day!

I was running here and there in my office since morning. No time to have my coffee. The only time that i've to myself is during my toilet break. That's all. Oh yes, i might be going to Europe for an assignment. That was what i heard during the meeting. If things turned out well, i'll be going with 2 senior Fund Manager.

Snap!

I'm so knickers mad about this particular person. My senior colleague is on leave for a week. Never did i know that she had plenty of unfinished work.

The victim? *pointing at my own face*
Wah liao! First call in the morning, a guy from UT were asking about the RFP from CW company. Fine. I'm not in the equity, so i got to talk to the people.
Me: When is the deadline?

Him: Possible by thursday can?

Marangprapukepundenparangsekeper!

I made a call to one of the five star hotel in town. I was supposed to receive an email from them but until now... nada!

Me: Hi, this is Sheryl. I was just wondering when did you guys email to me?
Her: I sent it yesterday
Me: I'm sorry but i'd still haven't receive it yet
Her: Apa, tak dapat lagi? Macamana ni? Your email address is *********

No wonder i didn't get the email through my office address. The file is too big. I asked her to fax it instead. Alright, i got it~

The person in-charge is quite lansi one. She demanded for a a full payment upon reservation.

Fine. I'll go and harass procurement people later.

I'm going to bring my clients' secretaries for the luncheon on the second week of april. After i hung up the phone, someone tapped me on the shoulder.

Her: You wanna watch her eh? Ada free ticket tak?

Me: Sila pergi beli sendiri boleh?
I know i'm being so mean to her that she just walked away from me. Free tickets, everybody also want. But when it comes to do the ground work, who wants to do?

I have to do all. I'm a wonder woman, remember?

What it says on the tin

2008-03-19T09:30:00.007+08:00

I had a good lunch with my colleagues, we're known as 'the three stooges'. Always together in a team regardless of how much pressure we have from BFH. We are so close. They are my big sister and abang ngah. I'm the youngest of all.

'Whatever BFH wanna say, be it he wants to curse, scold or yell at us, we are so immune already. We just imagine that he's talking to the wall. Don't bother at all!'

Bad isn't it?

Well, well... we're a bunch of tough cookie. Another newcomer is joining us by next month. I met her yesterday while talking to BFH.

Not bad. Pretty looking woman and well mannered. Nice.

'All the best dear!', i wanted to say that to her when she smiled at me but just don't have the heart to do so. Tak sampai hati.

After lunch, we had our coffee session as usual and went to Coach. Was eying on this particular bag and immediately the bag talked to me instantly!

'You ought to have me in your collection. I'm going to make you look good!'

Oh yeah?

What it says on the bag? If ever bag can do the talking all by herself, she would have said this.

You should make another trip tomorrow!

Life is full of bliss... i'm enjoying every bit of it.

Plus P&I is coming along as well. What else can i ask more?

I seriously need to get my precious Ergo!

She's all mine!

Americano 1188

2008-03-10T10:30:00.002+08:00

Can't wait for September ...
Can't wait to get hold of the new business ..
Can't really decide which is better.. a pink Birkin or an orange one?
Can't see who is the person outside the window, is that you?
Can't wait to grab a cup of americano ..
Can't wait to hit 30!
Can't wait to see cousin D getting engaged this weekend ... she's gonna be so lovely as usual
Can't wait to see my doc tomorrow ..

Overall, i just can't wait for everything! Life is good .. God has given me HIS blessing.

I'm so happy with the election result. Finally ... !

Pieces Left

2008-02-26T17:00:00.003+08:00

No matter what, i can't turned back the clock.
The door is closed now.
I've to go on with my life...
You gain some, you lose some... that's life baby.
Admit that.
I'm deeply hurt.
The old scar is still here.
It was a long winding road before and i hope it's gonna be smooth soon.
I'll pick up all the pieces left...

How can i ease the pain?

I'm a shopaholic!

2008-02-06T16:21:00.000+08:00

Yes. Agreed. Everybody must agree with the above statement.

Moi is a natural shopaholic. Pardon me, this entry is solely on my shopping spree.
Over the weekend, i was out with mommy dearest and my youngest brother. Three days in a row we visited the shopping malls.

Luckily i just got my 'B'. *coughs* (don't try to kidnap me now ok?). I was so happy to see the nice figures on my bank account.

Woohooo.... don't you just lurrrve to have cold hard cash after a full year working non-stop?

I bought shoes, handbag, clothes for mom and a pair of nice loafers for my brother.

As for me, i got myself a nice heels from NW and two shirts from Zara, of course. The remaining balance, i'd rather put aside for my savings and investment.

We had tea and delicious scones at Sheraton.

My cheongsam is waiting for me back home. I'll be back home for the new year. A reunion dinner with all the family members that we haven't seen for quite some time. There will be loads of things to catch up among us.

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMM SENG!

Gong Xi Fa Cai to all my chinese friends!

Bloodbath

2008-01-25T18:35:00.000+08:00

I was turned on just by looking at this photo. Mmmm... something to distract me from my hectic schedule today.

Times are bad, especially for people like us. Market is going up and down. Singing to the lullaby.

A client called in this morning. A regular call after my breakfast.

'Today ok?'

'Looks good. No worries!'

Later at 10 plus, he called again.

'Just now you said ok but now? Jatuh already!'

Mampos aku!

'Just now ok when i checked. Can i call you shortly?'

'Aiyooh, no need to call lah. You belanja me lunch la. See what you can do for me.'

Blerghhhh..

It's a bloodbath outside. Hang in there.

At Your Side

2008-01-18T10:30:00.000+08:00

When the daylight is gone and you're on your own
and you need a friend just to be around
I will comfort you, i will take your hand
And i'll pull you through, i will understand

and you know that..

I'll be at your side, there's no need to worry
Together we'll survive, through the haste and hurry
I'll be at your side
If you feel like you're alone, and you've nowhere to turn,
I'll be at your side

If life's standing still and your soul's confused,
And you cannot find what road to choose
If you make mistakes
You can't let me down
I will still believe
I will turn around

And you know that

I'll be there for you..

A Year Goes By

2008-01-09T09:04:00.000+08:00

On the eve of my birthday, i got myself wet at the bar with a good friend. It was raining heavily so we adjourned to a nice cafe nearby to have a simple dinner, just the two us together. The weather was nice and cozy and she even wanted to ask the stff to sing a birthday song to me but i declined.

Pai say lah babe, i'm old already!

Thanks for the nice cupcake, it was so sweet for you to spend some time with me. Thanks for the birthday gift too!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGEL EYES!

A year goes by. A year older and wiser. I learned a lot so far.

Don't ask me. I know what i am doing.

I hope i'll be in a pink of health this year so that i don't need to see the doc' every now and then. Sometimes i do get so sick with those medicines. Yes, sometimes i even threw away if nobody's watching me.

I want to be healthy, that's why i'm a regular at the gym downstairs.

My dad was asking me yesterday on what i want for my birthday.

'Give me one business. I'm sure i can run it pretty well!'

'Your wish might come true!'

Yipeeeeee!!

I admit, i'm much closer to my dad. The relationship between father and daughter is much different compare to mother and daughter.

'Or do you want a cotton candy? Remember when you were 5, crying when you didn't get the cotton candy at the fun fair?'

Oh yeah, i still remembered dad. I was clad in a pink gown and a pink ribbon on my hair.

I was cute when i was 5. (was). Now i'm old lah, according to my 15-yr old brother.

I had that cotton candy yesterday. It brings loads of good memories when you were young and free.

Yes, my first love was with the cotton candy. 'He' was always there with me even when i went to bed (coz i put it next to my pillow, in a plastic of course!).

I saw the dress again, with the cotton candy in my hand.

'That's what i want!' i told cotton candy with a gleeful smile.

'Do as what you want. I'm always here for you'

Cotton candy and the dress. It's in between a little child turning into a grown up woman.

I turned 29 today.

To all the well wishers, thank you so much guys!

Her Soul Searching

2008-01-03T09:23:00.000+08:00

Lately, her health is getting worse. She will easily catch cold early in the morning. Body aching and muscle pain. On and off. she will get her asthma. Doctor has advised her not to think too much because this will make things even worse. She can't help it.

She can't sleep at night. So many sleepless nights. She tried to do some reading, but to no avail. At 2 am, she is still wide awake, looking at the window, hoping that her guardian angel will come to her rescue. But, he's not coming tonight...

I-wish-i'm-out-of-the-window-and-better-be-dead-for-the-rest-of-you.

She talked quietly to herself.

Guess he would rather see her dead first thing in the morning.

Sigh.

Your wish might be granted, for all you know.

Welcome 2008

2007-12-31T17:12:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year to everyone out there. Take good care if you are out to party tonight.

I'll have a quiet celebration, in my own way. Might go skinny dipping or have some drinks by the pool.

Reunited.
'Reunited and it feels so good. Reunited cause we understood. There's one perfect fit. And sugar this one is it. We both are so excited cause we're reunited hey, hey..'

Endless Love.
'My love, there's only you in my life. The only thing that's bright. My first love-you're every breath that i take. You're every step i make..'

Sweet Love.
'With all my heart i love you baby. Stay with me and you'll see my arms will hold you baby... i'm in love.. '

Dewi.
'Dewi, kaulah hidupku. Aku cinta padamu sampai mati. Dewi, belah lah dadaku, agar kau tahu, agar kau mengerti..'

With or without you.
'And you give yourself away. And you give, and you give... with or without you...'

2 Become 1.
'Candle light and soul forever, a dream of you and me together. Say you believe it, say you believe it...'

The Power of Goodbye.
'Your heart is not open, so i must go. The spell has been broken i loved you so. You're my lesson, i had to learn. I was your fortress..'

Through the fire.
'Through the fire, to the limit to the wall. For a chance to be with yo. I'd gladly risk it all..'

Those are my all-time favorite songs.

I'll be a year older in 9 days time, can't wait in fact!.

Cheers to My Brother

2007-12-28T15:24:00.000+08:00

I've been away for so long that i lost track of everything. This morning, when i wanted to check my e-mail, i can't even remember what was my password. Thought i've wrote it in my organizer but couldn't find it.

*sigh*

Sign of an old age, maybe? Perhaps you're right. I'm thinking of closing this blog once and for all. For good. But still, i will read your blogs whenever time permits me to do so. You'll still see me regularly around the neighborhood. Can't wait for 2008 tho as i personally feel that 2007 could be much better but we have come to the end. 2008 is a year where we should all save up our cash as analysts predict inflation might turned up. To those who plan to do New Year's party, spend wisely because food price is slightly higher than the usuals. Guess it's not gonna be an 'easy' year but hopefully with all the early preparations, we will be on the safe side.
I looked up to the sky and i thank God for everything that He has given to me throughout the year.

My current obsession apart from more designer shoes and more clothes. I can only have this once in every fortnight.

I have to bring my brothers out for shopping this weekend as school will reopen next week. Yesterday i was overjoyed with a good news as my second brother managed to score straight A's in PMR.

'Tak sia sia aku memutuskan tali percintaannya dengan minah tu!'

My brother has been going out with this girl for few months. They met through a mutual friend. The thing that i hate most is when you're in school, you're supposed to concentrate on your studies, not sms-ing or love e-mails. This is the time where you devote yourself to your studies, nothing else. After several attempts to cut the 'ties', finally i went to his school and spoke to the disciplinary teacher in-charge. He went to a few sessions of counseling and so on. In the end, they went separate ways.

Thank God.

'I should be thankful to you for all you have done to me. Couldn't make it if it wasn't you'

I was so deeply touched. Never did i expect those words will come out from his mouth, judging from his temperamental behavior.

'I'm most worried about your future. I did this because i love you'

Bro', i wish you all the finest things in life. You have my love all the way through the journey. Don't look back. Just follow your heart.

I want you to be my best man.

California Rolls

2007-12-17T17:05:00.000+08:00

I know he's eying on my tight fitting dress. I was like 'HELLO, you have nothing better to do izzit?'

I want two california rolls. Yes please. Thank you!

Mmmm... they are very juicy. Fresh. Can i have another one? Smiling.

Didn't take my lunch at 1230 today due to the heavy workload. I can't even understand some simple English. Maybe because i was so hungry. Had a plate of fried noodle with Mr fair skinned at the cafe. Mr. Lebar joined us afterwards as usual.

Usually i'll have my regular teh ais but not today. I had milo iced instead. Yummy!

There is a booth selling chocolate nearby. Hmm... sorry. I only have appetite for Godiva, Ritter Sport and Lindt. Nothing else.

I feel fat today. Should shed some kilos before my next birthday. Doncha think so?

There will be a baby shower for a dear friend in January 08. Should plan from now on what to bring for the potluck party and the baby present. Note to self: Crabtree & Evelyn make a good choice. Cute and yet stylish for a newborn.

My camera is still in the hospital. Poor baby! I'm left with my mobile.

Went to Apple store and fall in love with macbook pro. I'll go for white. Apple is fantastic, oh how lovely!

I'm wearing Chance by Chanel today. Did you get the smell?

Well, it's monday. What do you expect?

*Mr fair skinned and Mr Lebar are my BFF, male version.

Oh Sweet, Sweet Love!

2007-12-13T11:33:00.000+08:00

With all my heart i love you baby
Stay with me and you will see
My arms will hold you, baby
Never leave, cause i believe

I'm in love, sweet love
Hear me calling out your name, I feel no shame
I'm in love, sweet love
Don't you ever go away, i'll always be this way

Oh, your heart has called me closer to you
I will be all that you need
Just trust in what we are feeling
Never leave 'cause baby i believe

No stronger love in this world
Oh, baby no, you're my man, I'm your girl
I'll never go, wait and see, can't be wrong
Don't you know this is where you belong

Sweet, sweet and lovely baby
Stay right here, never fear
I will be all that you need
Never leave, 'cause baby i believe..

*i sang to this on my way out... oh, how lovely is that?

The Power of WHY

2007-12-05T11:30:00.000+08:00

There are so many 'why's in my head...

1. Why do i have so many things to do in the office? Am i the only staff here?
2. Why does office politics still exist?
3. Why can't people be fair to each other?
4. Why can't my boss, at least ,appreciate my effort and contribution?
5. Why do i have to be addicted to facebook and blogging?
6. Why do i have to drive to work? (Because i'm yet to get a driver)
7. Why do i have to come work today? I'm extremely sick, you hear me? (because i'm so committed to work, in another word i'm a workaholic).
8. Why does some people like to gossip about me? Like they know me personally? Get a life you b*t**!
9. Why is BFH always MIA and i can't? Few minutes i'm not at my place, for sure someone will call me. (eh, go toilet also need to bring my mobile?)
10. Why can't i go on leave????

No matter what, i still can smile. With my cup of coffee, of course.

Nothing can brings me down.

My Fashion Statement

2007-12-03T11:05:00.000+08:00

Your Fashion Style is Classic

You like what's stood the test of time...
Simple, well styled clothes that don't scream trendy
You stay updated and modern, but your clothes stay in style for a while
You wouldn't be caught in animal prints, fake fur, or super bright colors

What Kind of Fashionable Woman Are You?

That's why i have a wardrobe full of white shirts and black skirts!

What i'm wearing today?

Black working shirt.
Checks pants from M&S.
NW black court shoes.
NW mahogany handbag.
Lovely, from SJP.

Lovely isn't it? Go and try it on. You'll feel great to be a woman.

Post Mortem of My Bali Trip

2007-11-27T08:48:00.000+08:00

Alright ..

Finally i managed to 'squeeze' some of my time to update more on my trip. You know what? I was online, checking on the fares to Bali and Jakarta. But first, the bonus is out most probably by end of this year or early january 08'. Fuhhh..
Yup.

During our 4 days in Bali, we only followed the bus on the first day, right after we arrived at Denpasar. The remaining days, we went on our own. Free and easy. We chartered a light blue Toyota Vios, mind you over in Bali the public cabs are ranged from Vios, Altis, Alphard, Mers and even Volvo. No offence to those who drives the above vehicles. Just like in Thailand. Our cabbie is Pak Budiana Made, a very friendly chap. Along the way to Ubud, he told us a joke.

'Miss, how old are you by the way?'

I was the only female in the cab.

'28 pak. Mengapa ya?'

'Jikalau di Bali ya, umurnya 28 sudah dikira tidak laku...'

The 4 men were laughing.
Terkena aku sekali. Cisss... nanti kau!
We stopped at Ubud. According to Budi, Ubud is famous for their unique painting and silver accessories. Most of the talented artist comes from this town. We went to Ubud market and i managed to get myself a 'mengkuang' bag for only RP 45,000. We had lunch at Adi Asri Restaurant where we had fried rice and snowball ice cream.

After Ubud, we proceed to Denpasar, the capital of Bali. My intention was to find a nice kebaya and a sarong. Over here, the whole stretch of road sells materials for kebaya. From chiffon, batik, brocade and satin, you just name it. It was a difficult at first to decide but luckily there was a woman who helped me to complete my mission.

She brought me to Denpasar wet market. Just an ordinary wet market where you can see fishmongers and vegetable sellers at the ground floor, groceries on the first and finally when i reached the third, i saw kebaya. My kebaya! Woohoooo!

Mission accompolished! I bought a white lacey kebaya. together with the batik sarong. Photo will be uploaded soon. Without wasting any time, i thanked the woman and i ran to the waiting cab. My other fellow colleagues managed to buy something for their wives while i was away from them. M bought a telekung for his wife and daughters while NCT bought some fruits at the market.

Our next stop is at Legian Street. I bought a green tube dress which i wore in the photos. Should have buy more coz it only cost me about RM20!. I 'borong' some beads sandals for the loved ones and friends. From there we walked to our hotel. Stopped for a while to get my 'fix', a cup of coffee, as usual at Starbucks. Thanks God, there are 2 Starbucks outlet nearby.

In Legian, i noticed that there are many Australian brand names such as Billabong, Rip Curl, Arena, Surf Girl, and Roxy. Went inside Roxy to have a look at heir swim wear range but too bad... they don't have it in my size! Aiyoooh!. Went To Surf Girl and FINALLY.. a black and white two piece for moi. A yeyayyy for myself!.

The Famous Four (moi, NCT, M and AM) spent the rest of the evening playing beach volleyball, swimming and surf boarding at Kuta beach while waiting for dinner time. Dinner was at Santhi Cafe at Jimbaran whre we had seafood by the beach. We were greeted with a white frangipani each by their hostess. Rasa macam kat Hawaii pulak. Hehe. Dinner was good, with crazy people around us (am referring to our other colleagues).

Night time was the best of all. After the dinner, we went back to the hotel to get changed. Instead of taking a cab to clubs, we decided to walk in order to explore more of Kuta area. MBar Go club was our nightspot. It is an R&B club where they played good R&B music. The club is facing the Sari club (Sari club was bombed by the bali bombers in 2002). This clib opens up till 6am. Fuhh.. we only stayed there till 2am as the crowd was getting bigger with Aussies. Decided not to take the risk, who knows the terrorists might wanna strike another one? We hoped not.

The next day, we followed the group to see 'Barong' dance at one of the temple in town. But still, i preffered 'Kecak' Dance at Uluwatu Temple as it was quite a catchy dance and music. Barong dance is more to their religion, Hinduism. We proceed to Batik factory and then to Kintamani.

We were at Tanah Lot on the third day. It was raining in the morning. Tanah Lot has a fantastic view, take a look at the photos below. How i wish i could stay there..

The fourth day, we went out to do our own shopping before our flight back to KL. Went to Matahari Square to get my Indonesian CDs. For the last time, Famous Four went for swimming together at the pool. We had fun in Bali, that's for sure. We promised to make another trip, hopefully early next year if time permits us.

It was time for us to leave... oh God, i just hate to say goodbye ...

During our journey to the airport, our Bali tour guide, Sudi was saying this.

'Bila sampai di airport nanti, saya sebgai tour guide kamu tidak boleh menemani kamu semua masuk ke dalam ya. Hanya di luar sahaja'

Why must there be a goodbye? I love this place, i love these people... i love everything that Bali has to offer.

The Famous Four decided to give some sort of token to Sudi. He shed some tears before we left.

'Thank you sirs, miss.. sampai ketemu lagi ya'

I didn't have the heart to look at him for the last time.

It was a heartbreaking experience.

Bali

2007-11-21T09:52:00.000+08:00

This is Uluwatu Temple. A very sacred place to Hindus in Bali.

I feel like doing bungee jumping right here from the top!

Sunset at Uluwatu

Tanah Lot

Meet our Bali tour guide, Sudi. I cried on the last day at the airport. Terima kasih, pak.

At the Bali bombing 02' memorial, Legian street. It was a bit creepy here. RIP!

Bakso, anyone?

I took a walk along Kuta Beach one morning.. 630am

Kecak Dance a.k.a Fire Dance

The Kecak group

Hard Rock poolside. Feels like heaven!

Tanah Lot. I turned out to be a balinese woman here

How i wish i can wake up every morning to witness this view?

This is where i stayed, Hard Rock Hotel, Bali..

It was a long, overdue post i would say. Forgive me as i was extremely knackered once we touched down at KLIA. 4 days 3 nights in Bali is definitely not enough for me. I would rather spend a week instead.

My luggage is still unpacked. Dang! Gotta do it one of these days.

For the time being, let the pictures do the talking. I'll tell you more in my next entry.

Bali
Aku jatuh cinta buat sekian kali nya
Tatkala melihat mu
Kurasakan
Seakan berada di syurga
Pasti
Aku akan kembali lagi
Setelah diri ini sebati denganmu
Pabila ku terjaga dari tidur
Aku tersenyum
Kerna
Kau masih setia bersama ku
Tidak jemu
Menemani ku
Di kala ku keseorangan
Kau mengerti perasaan ini
Kau baluti diriku dengan keindahan yang sedia ada
Aku bahagia
Pasti
Kita kan bertemu lagi
Aku percaya
Kita kan bersama
Kembali..

Selamanya rindu denganmu..
Kita bisa bersatu kembali.
Tiada apa yang boleh memisahkan kita..

Take Me to Bali.. Again...

2007-11-14T09:52:00.000+08:00

Greetings from Bali!

I'm still tired from my trip but will update you soon ..

I miss swimming in the pool early in the morning and late evenings, it has become my ritual and i felt so at home.

I watched the sunset at the beach across the hotel that we stayed and i discovered myself..

I began to love nature more each day.

Just sitting on the beach and watched the clear blue sky while listening to the ipod.

Dancing through the nite with my buddies in my shorts, tee and sassari.. we had a great fun together. I ditched my heels and stilletoes.

We are one big family ... we are a bunch of smart happy people, according to our tour guide.

I miss our Bali guide, Sudi. Terima kasih pak, sampai ketemu lagi ya? *sobs*

Most of all, i wanna go back soon.

Yes, i found my dancing shoes, at last.

In The Name of 'Sampat'

2007-11-07T10:45:00.000+08:00

Found this at Datin Winn's and decided to do it as my workload is quite 'okay' this week. I know, i know Bali mood in in the air...

1. Name one person who made you laugh last night. I heard my neighbour laughed last nite. Dunno why. Maybe she 'syok syok' already. Ciss!

2. What were you doing at 0800? I'm in my office already. Reading some reports from the analysts.

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? Went to see my doctor.

4. What happened to you in 2006? I decided to join the fund management industry regardless of my different background before, from corporate banking to FM. It was tough at first but i survived!

5. What was the last thing you said out loud? 'You think your car is so nice? Blerghhhh!'

6. How many beverages did you have today? 2 cups of black coffee to go, a glass of fresh milk before i go to work and 2 glasses of warm water.

7. What color is your hairbrush? Pink.

8. What was the last thing you paid for? RM 1.50 for my 'mimpau'.

9. Where were you last nite? At home, sleeping. Not feeling very well

Can't wait to lie down here... just enjoy the moments while i still can..

10. What color is your front door? Dark brown. Might change it to light grey.

11. Where do you keep your change? My wallet.

12. What's the weather likes today? Cloudy and i wish i can be in bed now.

13. What's the best ice cream flavour? Coffee and chocolate.

14. What excites you? Lots of moolah and of course new shoes!.

15. Do you want to cut your hair? Yes, hopefully before my birthday?

16. Are you over the age of 25? Yes, i'm old and wise enough to have my own child.

17. Do you talk a lot? According to my mom and aunt, i'm a chatterbox a.k.a popcorn in the family.

18. Do you watch the O.C? Sometimes.

19. Do you know anyone named Steven? Izzit Steven's Corner or Uncle Steven?

20. Do you make out your own words? Oo-er!

This is Ku De Ta restaurant @ Seminyak.... i'll be dining here on friday night ..

21. Are you a jealous person? You know me better, darling ..

22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'A'. Arlyn

23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'K'. Kacip Fatimah.

24. Who is the first person on your received call list? BFH, asking for his next appointment.

25. What was the last text message you received say? 'From 07/11/07 to 09/11/07, there will be no SMS delivery notification report when you send an SMS. We apologize for any inconvenience caused'.

26. Do you chew on your straw? Are you so hungry or hamsap here lah?.

27. Do you have curly hair? Nope, it's slightly wavy at the bottom.

28. Where's the next place you're going to? Bali, this friday.

29. Who's the rudest person in your life? You!

30. What was the last thing you ate? 'Jemput jemput pisang'.

31. Will you get married in the future? Absolutely.

32. What's the best movie you've seen in the past 2 weeks? The Brave One starring my favourite actress, Jodi Foster.

33. Is there anyone you like right now? Mr. Paul Smith.

34. When was the last time you did the dishes? This morning, washed my cereals bowl.

35. Are you currently depressed? Nope. Maybe later at night.

36. Did you cry today? Yes.

37. Why did you answer and post this? Because i miss Datin Winn so much.

38. Tag 5 people who would do this survey

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BFH!.

I'm off to Bali this friday morning and will be back next week.

I'll see you soon. Take care!

By the way where's my dancing shoes????

My Life, My Soul.. Always in New York.

2007-11-01T09:37:00.000+08:00

New York is always close to my heart. I know, i'm a big city girl.

Go to Manhattan. As a centre of culture and commerce, Manhattan is a hotbed of activity with an unending list of things to see and to do. From dining at a top restaurant in Union Square, to seeing dynamic theater on and off Broadway, to shopping in NoLita or the East Village. From Battery Park downtown to the Cloisters uptown, there are diversions everywhere worth discovering. It's hard to believe so much energy and activity fits into this small island, a mere 237 square miles.

Next, head to Upper West Side. Broadway, brownstones, books and grab some bagels. The famous Lincoln Center for the Performing Arts sits between 61st and 66th Streets on Broadway. In the evening, go to the romantic Cafe des Artistes and fantastical Tavern on the Green where they serve everything from deli sandwiches to buritos to haute cuisine.

I'm going there folks!

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My Desktop Free View Instructions

A. Upon receiving this tag, immediately perform a screen capture of your desktop. It is best that no icons be deleted before the screen capture so as to add to the element of fun.

(1) Going to your desktop and pressing the Print Screen key (located on the right side of the F12 key).

(2) Open a graphics program (like Picture Manager, Paint, Photoshop) and do a Paste (CTRL+V).

(3) If you wish, you can 'edit' the image, before saving it.

B. Post the picture in your blog. You can also give a short explanation on the look of your desktop just below if you want. You can explain why you preferred such look or why is it full of icons. Things like that.

C. Tag five of your friends and ask them to give you a Free View of their desktop as well.

D. Add your name to this list of Free Viewers with a link pointing directly to your Desktop Free View post to promote it to succeding participants.

If i'm not that 'rabun' lah ..

a) misha - TAG #20 my desktop

b) mudpie - view in my mood

I would like to TAG these people:

1. J.T

2. Kuza

3. Ween

4. chikanoz

5. Cosmic Gurl

From Johor With Love ..

2007-10-26T11:31:00.000+08:00

Those are my Raya moments with my family members. You can imagined once all cousins were living under one roof, for sure it was a havoc. Being a single, i was assigned to take care of the kitchen, meaning that i had to cook for breakfast and served lunch with the help from our 3 maids. Luckily!

Alright, one my cousin told me that my sambal sotong is deli.cious and he wanted more.
Another cousin demanded for my fried bihun on the third raya, which she claimed that it was less oil and very ehalthy. Of course, i only used corn oil ... and lots of veggie. A bit of chili tho. Mmmm... anybody wants bihun now? Raise your hands. Who says that i can't cook lah?

I'm trying to learn how to cook rendang tok for my next raya.

This is year i still managed to get 'duit raya' from my uncles. Hehe.... what about next year?

We just wait and see. Surprise! Surprise!

Reach Out

2007-10-23T11:50:00.000+08:00

'Hearts break.. hearts mends.. love still hurts

visions clash.. planes crash

Still there's talk of saving souls

Still the cold is closing on us'

I stared at the wall.

Hearts are worn..

I'll try to hold it in. I'll try.

High COP- Impact on sector earnings

2007-10-19T16:57:00.000+08:00

Something to share with you folks before my Raya entry ..

Crude oil prices have spiked up to US$87/barrel on concerns over the threat of conflict between Turkey and Iraq. We believe the price spike is 'temporary' as global supply and demand factors remain under control in the medium term.

Our 2008 crude oil price assumption thus stands at US$60-65. Nevertheless, there is still a risk that crude oil prices could continue to rise and stabilise at higher-than-expected prices. Therefore, we have tested our earnings forecasts for a number of sectors assuming 10% increase in oil prices.

- Airlines- biggest impact with reduction in earnings by 39-95%.

- Timber - earnings could be reduced by 10- 11%.

- Plantations - higher fertiliser and transport costs translate into 1-4% reductions in earnings.

- Power utilities- only in Sarawak Energy ecposed, -5% in earnings.

- Glove manufacturers- muted impact with earnings reduced by 1- 3%.

Secondly, Singapore's Temasek Holdings yesterday opened the tender processes for Tuas Power, the first of three power generation companies put up for sale. We expect interest from Malaysian power companies as well as international bidders. Therefore, competition is likely to be intense, which potentially couold drive up prices and reduce project returns.

Temasek apparently is looking for US$2bn which would value Tuas at US$0.75/MW, comparable to tanjong's Globeleq purchase at US$0.7m/MW.

We believe there are more opportunities elsewhere in MENA, India and Southeast Asia, if there is no success in Singapore.

Maintain Neutral stance on the sector, and Outperform calls for Tanjong (FV = RM21.15) and Sarawak Energy (FV = RM3.38).

When Girl Meets Girl

2007-10-09T08:45:00.000+08:00

I went for a buka puasa session with my family members at Flamingo's. My oh my.. my cousins are all grown up to be young beautiful ladies. You can see from their physical, from a lil' girl before transforming into a lady. Time sure flies. I know i'm getting old, yeah.. that's the fact. Hehe.. i'm happy to be old and matured.

'How old are you now Kak Sheryl?'

'I'm 28 dear'

'You're getting old already. Why don't you get married? Go and get married pls!'

Deep inside she's still a girl. Life is getting harder my dear. Nothing comes easy. You gotta work hard for that. I consider myself a selfish person if i ever leave everything aside and go for that 'M' thingy. No, i'm not. I still have a long way to go. I still wanna go for that dream. I'm a dream chaser. I wannabe there soon.

'I've a boyfriend'

She smiled gleefully. You cheeky!

'Really, who's he? He's here tonight?'

'Of course not. He's with his family lah...'

'He treats you good?'

'He bought me chocolate when i was sick last week'

She was smiling away while talking about him. Boy, you can imagine how a young girl fall in love!.

'What type of chocolates he bought for you?'

'Cadburry'

'Next time ask for Godiva ok?'

'Is it good?'

'Of course it is, that's the best chocolate!'

One thing i noticed was that that these two girls really had a good time at the buffet. They had 2 plates of chicken rice, fried mee, curry me and lots of ice cream. They are lucky because at their age, they can eat whatever that they want. No diet. I wish i could go back to those days where i can gobble everything and not to worry about gaining weight. Well, now i have to watch my diet, like it or not.

'You are having that only?'

She pointed at my fishball noodle soup.

'Yes'

'Aren't you hungry?'

'I'm okay with this dear..'

'Oh.. i can't have those. I prefer rice'

Hehe.. a good conversation between an adult and a young girl while having dinner. There were so many questions being asked by her. There were so many 'why'(s) and 'how'(s) and i became a big sister to her.

At the end of the dinner, we said goodbye.

'I want to be just like you when i grow up. Tall and lanky with a beautiful face!'

She made me smile with her remarks.

I'll be back to my hometown tomorrow. It's gonna be a long break for me till next week. I'll put aside all my work and just enjoy visiting relatives and friends. Will try to eat more raya cookies, hopefully.

If you happen to see a lady walking along the beach at sunset, in a white sundress, flip flops plus Oakley shades, it might be me. Don't be shy to say hi.

A Note From The Heart

2007-10-03T13:21:00.000+08:00

I'm terribly sorry for everything that i've done. I know you're still mad at me. I cried yesterday while thinking of you. We shared so many things together. I can still smell your perfume on your shirt. I missed that.

Please give me a chance... i need you in my life.

Remember you used to call me K*?

I missed that babyface look on you B ...

Yours truly,

And I'll Pass This Award To..

2007-10-01T11:42:00.000+08:00

This is hard man... I'd rather do a maths quiz or statistics paper ... seriously. Everyone deserve an award for their contribution in the blogging world. But it is limited to only 5 bloggers. So how now?

Alright, hopefully after i gave away this award, no hard feelings.

1. Lee UK

2. My darling Sooz

3. Sarcy

4. Pijah

5. Cosmic Girl a.k.a Sherie

Alright, i've done my part. These 5 bloggers need to nominate another 5 for the award too.

Take Me Home

2007-09-24T11:23:00.000+08:00

I had a good weekend. I was back to my hometown and while doing some groceries with mom and aunt, i bumped into my former tution teacher.

'Sheryl, how are you my dear?'

'Aunty J, i'm good.. and you?'

We embraced. It's been a while since i last met her. Almost 5 years ago to be exact. Time sure flies that fast huh?

I saw her hubby who was pushing the cart to the cashier and i said hi to him. He used to be my tution teacher when i was in primary one.

'Uncle, how are you?'

'Hey, you'd still look the same lah.. how did you do?

We laughed. He still maintained those macho look after several years. I still can remember how fierce he was during the tution classes especially when he was holding the rotan.

Takut seh! No, i never kena rotan before..

Aunty J look a bit older, but still very stylish with her dress.

It was good to see familliar faces from my childhood days. Those people who truly knows me and regard me as part of their life. People may come and go.

Be still in my heart. You're very special to me. You know that.

Take me home and we have coffee together by the seaside..

From Here It All Begins

2007-09-19T08:34:00.000+08:00

I stepped inside with my black court shoes clicking to the floor.

And i said to myself, wow!

I was so amazed with the office's lounge. From the interior to the people inside. My oh my... it feels like heaven!

It's so cozy that i bet some of you might fall asleep right on the comfy sofa while waiting for the designated officer to come out and meet them. I saw charming ladies, bearing some flesh with their short skirt with slits, i repeat with 'slits'. It was a sight for male clients. I could see some of the men peeping from the magazines. What an eye catching! Ahhh...

'Will i be just like them if i ever work here'?

'Will i wear that short skirt too?'

'Will I've that kind of hairstyle?' Straight long hair or with big curls?'

'Will i have that accent when i talk to my clients?'

There are so many possibilities.

Nah, i hate waiting but today, i gotta wait.

I overheard one conversation between a lady (client) and an officer.

'I'm looking for Chloe'

'I'm sorry she's on leave, but i might help you-'

'It's alright, I'm used to her. I'll come back tomorrow'

She walked out from the lounge.

You know something?

Between a client and us. I'm referring to my field.

If you treat your client right, he/she will be faithful to you. He/she will follow you wherever you go.

Give her another person to 'replace' you.. no way. They will say NO.

I'd still have few faithful clients in my hands from the first company that i have worked before. They are very handy. They trust my judgement and decision. Well, I'm not saying that I'm good, i believe there are a lot more who are much better than me.

They trust me.

Back to the ladies, ahem sorry to the office. While i was watching the tele, there came a petite girl.

'My boss is ready to see you'

I followed her inside.

There i saw three ladies seated at a big table. All perfectly dressed. Immaculate.

The session lasted for an hour or so with me being the main suspect. At a certain stage, i was forced to give my answers immediately. They wanted me to think FAST and FAST, don't ever hesitate. This is not a game my friend. This is the real world.

We ended with me saying thank you to each of them.

Phew! That was my second interview today. Anytime the employment letter will be send to me.

It's not easy to join in this giant company but i believe i've got what it takes.

My Slingback Sandals

2007-09-17T08:51:00.000+08:00

You are Slingback Sandals

Classy and sophisticated You dress to the nines wherever you go Even if it's in your couture sweats!

What Kind of Sandal Are You?

It's me, me and of course it's ME!

I just lurrve my slingback collection. Nothing can beat that, you hear me?

What type of shoes do you like? Tell me. I wanna hear from you.

I'm Still Here

2007-09-12T08:07:00.000+08:00

On leave today. Going for a job interview.

Certificates original / copy- checked!

IC- checked!

my 3 months paycheck original/copy - checked!

my CV - checked!

my black suit - checked!

my black court shoes - checked!

oh ya.. and a great smile!

Wish me luck folks!

I'll see you soon.

It's Like Living In A Box

2007-09-06T07:47:00.000+08:00

You know i've this thoughts. It keeps on replaying on and on.

If things doesn't turn out to be what i want, i might consider this.

Cut my hair short ala Demi Moore in Ghost. Quit my job almost immediately and do my own thing.

I'm looking at New York, or the city of angels ... to the LA.

I'm gonna take up shooting classes, tried once but i quit after the second class due to time constraints and now i want to obtain my license and buy myself a gun.

I wannabe a hunter .. on the move searching for her assassins on the run.

Maybe i should ..

Run baby, run!

When In Doubt, Shop & Shop!

2007-09-03T08:18:00.000+08:00

My ah so precious 9 west! Ohh.. la, la.. ces't la vie! - From Kabooing!-

Green tunic from F21

Big flowers from DP

Cotton tunic ..

Naddy dahlink, this entry is especially for ya!

The Day That I Want To Be The Next Shalin

2007-08-27T10:05:00.000+08:00

The gift from C&E ..

The free gift from C&E ..

My trophy ...

Our team+client's team .. 2nd half of the game. See our orange tee?

Best 2nd female award goes to me .. with 606 pins altogether! As a result, now i have a set of chapped nails at my right hand .. *sigh*

Thank God everybody likes our doorgift *ahem* .. a flask which comes in a variety of colors.

Day before the tournament, we distributed the tee shirt to the bowlers. As usual there were mulut mulut sumbang yg tidak ada insurance.

'Eii.. orange doesn't suits me! Tak cantik!'

Tak cantik pi pakai baju kau sendiri!

'Any extra tees? Cantik laa ..'

Sorry, the other day when i asked you declined, now nak tees hirt pulak. Podah!

Then only i remembered her saying this last few weeks.

Me: 'Do you wanna play? We are short of bowlers -'

She: 'Sorry lah.. this game is only for old folks .. if netball i nak'

Me: 'Oh... ok..'

'Eh, bowling is an old folks game what.. so why do you want to have the tee?'

Muahahaa..

My CEO whispered to me while giving me a hug, 'You've done a great job dear!'

I know ma'am. I know that very well. I'm an all rounder in every aspects.

Next year there will be no bowling, instead we are going for .... go kart!

Yahooooooooooooooooo !!!

Purple is the color for 2008. Tak suka jgn datang!

Piraah

2007-08-23T18:44:00.000+08:00

Lunch@ Kavitha's. I personally announced that was my 'cheat day' when we went for makan makan. Giler kenyang! Blamed it on Ah Tiong who brought us to this shop!

My second brother called the other day from his college. He seldom do this UNLESS he wants 'something' from me lah .. i.e. buy a new shirt, need some spare cash or my advise on girls.

'Yes? Shoot!'

'No, i don't need cash for this week sis, I-'

Good. Thank you young man.

'My friend sent his regards to you'

'Oh..'

Young man.. hmm..

'Only regards?'

'Yeah .. what else?'

'Tell him that this is not high school where you can always send regards to whoever that you admire'

'Then?

'Kirim salam takde guna nye, kalau kirim duit better. Most welcome!'

Piraah mabuk!

Psst... i saw a very nice black court shoes@ Zara yesterday. It fits me well and i think .... z$%*&@1!

Black Balloons

2007-08-21T19:09:00.000+08:00

I could say today is the most busiest day for me as i didn't have time to grab my cup of coffee. My DID was ringing non-stop. Usually there will be a sweet voice to answer but not today. Just not today.

*that sweet voice refers to me*

'Hello!'

I sounded so harsh. It was unusual for me to do so. Forgive me.

'Stressful day for you?'

That was my client. Gotcha!

'Sorry Mr. E, yes what can i do for you ..'

It was a bloody 4:30pm when BFH interrupted me and ordered to put aside EVERYTHING at once.

'Checked your mail now!'

Good God.

'You attend to this first!'

Boy and i was extremely mad. Can't you see that I'm chasing the deadline before Friday? Can't you see that i completely ignored all calls from my cell? Can't you see?

The best part, the task is from Compliance. They have to submit the report by today. Email was sent to them yesterday evening.

Like hello.. why don't you tell us first thing in the morning today? Oh i forgot that you walked into the office almost 11am. I see... mm... nice..

I read through the email and found this. Should i laugh or should i slammed her right on her face?

'Due to time constraints, appreciate if feedback could be provided by end of the day'

Hey look, it was 4:30pm. Work ends at 5:45pm. I don't mind staying back, i did it almost everyday since day one i joined this company. How many hours left for me now?

I cursed and cursed. I know it's not a right thing to do but hey ..

My gums are still swollen since yesterday. I went to see my dentist and had my upper wisdom tooth removed. The pain is killing me till now. I rather go bungee jumping 10 times non-stop rather than having this kinda pain. I swear!

Being a very efficient employee in the company, i managed to complete the task by 6:45pm. Don't you think that i deserve an award? I think i am.

Right here, right now i need to play with my black balloons. Pass me some please. Cotton candy would be great too if it's available.

Shoes For Sale

2007-08-20T08:10:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry baby i've to let you go. I can't fit into you although you're size 7. *sobs*

I hope you'll get a good owner who loves you as much as i do. Be good to her pls.

A brand new Charles & Keith shoes, all the way from Singapore

Never 'pakai' before.. only tried few times.

Size 7

Going cheap for RM80

Interested buyer needed urgently.

Latest Update: SOLD!

5K

2007-08-14T15:08:00.000+08:00

Looks like i have a handful of things to do before the 25th!

Coming 25th we are going to have our annual bowling with the shareholder. As usual, yours truly is the person in charge. From choosing the venue until buying trophies+gifts from Crabtree & Evelyn+ orange color tee shirts+food... semua i lah. Kena marah also i lah. Itu sudah menjadi kebiasaan. Lumrah alam.

*The gift for the best team, of course there will be more goodies in the basket+trophy

I had a discusssion with my CEO and GM from OP yesterday morning re this matter. I suggested that the prizes for the best team should be like the one as the above, whereas for the best female and male bowler we can give toilettries from C&E. She agreed with my ideas.

CEO: 'Prizes should not be limited to those'

Me: 'What d'ya mean?'

CEO: 'Why don't you give prizes to be the best dresses? Best pose? Best 'masuk longkang'?'

Me:'Huh?'

*scrathing my head*

GM: 'The budget is 5K'

Me: '5K is not enough, at least 7K'

The GM stared at me. As if i wanna telan the remaining balance. Eh hello.. telan 2K tarak cukup. At least telan 10K in one shot better. Puas hati.

Why 7K?

Let me explain to you. Gifts a.k.a hamper you don't want those coming from Carrefour or Giant. Fine. At first you want me to get it from M&S. During sale, M&S doesn't provide hamper, unless you wanna pick-choose-by-yourself. One bag of cookies is almost 30 bucks.

Then i suggested that we go for Crabtree&Evelyn. They have different types of cookies, jams, and teas. We are going shopping this friday. Hooray!

Hmm.. for sure i'll have to use my own cash in advance. Ceh.. potong stim betul!

I purposely choose orange color for the shirt this year. Last year we had dark blue and everybody complained saying that it was such a dull color. I couldn't do much coz it was a last minute thingy and there was not much choice left.

I heard one of the girls was saying, 'Why orange, light green is nicer!'

Shut up! Whatever color i choose you gotta bear with it. Coz i'm the boss for now. Dahlah tee shirt FOC. Take it or leave it.

Next in line, more reports need to be done before the fasting month. BCP plans for external Fund Managers. Waaa..

After the event, i'm planning to drown my sorrows in a flurry of prada paraphernalia.

Prada anyone?

Get Out Of My Sight

2007-08-09T11:06:00.000+08:00

I'm really tired+frustrated+pissed+angry at my workplace.

BFH is going to Sarawak with the whole entourage for a business trip and that left us with loads of ground work to do, i.e. presentation, product structured, proposal, corporate gifts and so on. Orang lain yang pergi, kita yg teruk kena buat kerja. As usual!

He has been chasing for my work since last week. Fine, i've done my part. Enough said lah. But when i was on leave last Monday and he called first thing in the morning, i told myself.

'This is too much. Way too much to treat your staff who's on LEAVE.. not on EL or MC. I'm on LEAVE!'

By the way, my leave balance is still at 20 days. People kept on asking me why and why?

My answer is simple.

'You can ask my boss ..'

Hehe..

It has been two days in a row me and my colleagues were not allowed to leave the office during lunch. Day one, i starved myself. I asked my other colleague to tapau my lunch but when she got back, she forgot to do so.

'Haiyaaa... sorry i totally forgot to tapau for you ... but the wantan mee is so delicious!'

Ceh.. d'ya know that wantan mee is one of my favourite? Lagi mau cakap sedap, sedap!

I decided not to have my lunch at all.

Day two, i ordered pizza through my CEO's secretary. We knew that we can't finish the whole pizza so we shared it between the two of us. As i was about to have the first bite, BFH came out from the meeting room and he saw me.

'What are you doing here? Go and print out the materials now .. jgn nak delay!'

He snapped at me.

Immediately, this came out from my mouth, i swear it was unplanned and i don't know where i managed to get the courage to bantai balik.

'I baru nak makan. Later!'

He was shocked with my answer but didn't utter anything. He went out smoking.

In the evening, i was very stressed and tired. My eyes just couldn't take it anymore after 5 hours looking at my PC and i gotta switch to my glasses. Thinking og getting a up of cuppa, i walked down to the cafe alone. There, i met my remisier friend who was having his drink.

We talked. Not long after that, there was a call from BFH on my cellphone.

Shit! Shit!

'Where are you now?'

'In the cafe, having my drink'

'You've to stay back today until they finish their work. No gym for you. If you need to stay till nite i don't care!'

I hung up his call.

and... i cried my heart out in front of my friend. At the mamak's, cafe.

I just can't take it. My friend, S looked at me and he said this.

'If you need to cry, go ahead. Let it out. Don't keep it to yourself ..'

Yes, i admit i cried and as a result i had a pair of puffy eyes. Bengkak. If i don't cry, i might go haywire. Or else, i might hurt someone in the office.

My colleague, M told me not to be so good towards BFH. He describe me as a decent person.

'You already know that BFH is one hell of a 'bingai' person. Next time don't entertain him. Just ask him to go and die lah!'

Haha.. brilliant!

I chose to go to the gym. Hit the treadmill. Who says that i can't go to the gym? You can't stop me. You can't control me. I don't belong to you. I'm just your staff during working hours.

The best thing is, no matter how fierce or how cruel you are... i don't care anymore----> BFH!

Hey, you're not the one who pays my salary lah! You also makan gaji.. don't try to shout at me.

I've suffered long enough and i guess my 'jodoh' is not gonna be that long with him .. i might bid farewell earlier that i expected.

Just so you know. Get out of my sight.

Now!.

* I gotta agree with this author, 'Sometimes there are good reasons to do bad things' ..

Not For Me, Sorry

2007-08-03T16:39:00.001+08:00

What would you feel if someone is willing to pay your credit card bill?

Isn't that crazy? For me it's absolutely crazy!

But some might say, "Yahoooooooo!" and kissed the guy.

I had my fair share. He came to my office one day. Smiling as usual.

'Yes Datuk, what can i do for you?'

He is a Datuk after all. Okay.. so what?

'I give you a supplementary card ok?'

WTF? For what? Do you think i'm not capable to pay my own bills eh? Ceh..

'It's ok.. i don't need that. Thank you!'

'You know that i don't simply take a NO?'

'But i'm serious i don't need-'

'Sheryl pls..'

'Sorry Datuk, i got things to do. Catch up with you lay-tah!'

Nothing comes for free in this life. He pays for my bills, for sure he wants something in return! This is not the first time, he even wants me to be his second wife! Gila ker hapa bang? Nak suruh i kena sepak terajang ke? Sorry lah i tak berminat langsung... orang lain boleh kot.

I prefer cold hard cash rather than the plastic card. What if the relationship go sour and the guy terminate the card?

I would rather enjoy my sinful hot choc at deli.cious cafe. than layan that cheeky old hag!

My Pinky Rawks!

2007-07-30T14:40:00.000+08:00

Oooohh.... ahhhh.....

Je t'aime beaucoup!

No, no. This is not an orgasm entry. Nothing to do with it. I'm just enjoying my new baby ...

This is my pinky sassari. She will go to Bali with me. By the way, my flight to Bali is on 091107. Be back by the 12th.

Aiyooh... BFH will be on the same trip with me!. Mati laaaa mak...lariiii!

Cuppcakes With Loads of Love

2007-07-27T18:14:00.000+08:00

So many things to write, yet so little time left. The whole day i was busy working on a proposal for client. The fund is not really that 'big' lah, compared to my other clients who have invested with us. This comes from an existing portfolio. I've to come up with the simulation, investments returns for each funds, and indicative returns.

Oh boy, and my favourite word of the day is TWRR ... Time Weighted Rate Returns!

A quick UPDATE!

My Bali trip is CONFIRMED on 16th November 2007. It's F.O.C. Hehe... i know i'm a lucky devil here. I only need to bring cash, no plastic card, for the trip. It's a 4 days and 3 nights stay at Batu Keras Hotel. Yahooooooooooooooooo!

Pls bring that white bikini in!

That wasn't me dude... i wanna hit the spa and more shopping+photos. No, no photos of me in that bikini. Fat hopes!

More juicy stories next week .... have a good weekend fellas!

* The above cupcakes is for my colleague, Kak Liza who 'berenti' today after 10 years working with us. All the very best for your future sweets! *huggies*

I Say Ouch! and more Ouch!

2007-07-23T13:29:00.000+08:00

This morning i went to Pantai Medic for an appointment with the ortopedician. Remember my sprained ankle? After several medication from my doc', she decided to refer me to the specialist. I really like to go to Pantai because personally i would say that their doctors are very friendly. They have good gynae too. Yup, once i got married and the next step would be getting pregnant, i would choose to deliver my baby here.

I've already made an appointment beforehand so i waited for merely 10 minutes before i walked in to the doc's room. He is in his middle fifties but looks very healthy. A bit like my dad tho. We talked about my problem and he asked me to go to the X-ray room.

Alright. Take it easy.

See the above chart? Mine is now is in between Grade 2 and 3. Complete tear of some but not all collagen fibres in the ligament. Now i remember the 'makcik urut' saying to me that my ligament is tear off. Never i wished this could happen to me.

Doc' gave me some medicine. I might need some physical therapy in a week's time. What scares me off was when he mentioned this.

'But if in 2 weeks time you still have the pain, we might have to perform a minor surgery on you'

Oh my God. This is no joke. Please don't. I hope this ankle will recover soon. But IF it still like this, i don't mind going for surgery if it is for the best.

Friends forever babes..

and The Award Goes To ..

2007-07-18T11:36:00.000+08:00

and the award goes to ....

Angel Eyes!!!

I received this Rockin Girl Blogger Award from Datin Winn. Never did i realise that i'm a rockin' girl. Am i? Aaahhh ..

*blushing from ear to ear*

This award goes to each of you readers. Thank you everyone! *hugs*

Yes, i need to give this award to 5 other female bloggers. It's very difficult you see because all the ladies in my blogroll ROCKS!. Any nomination folks?

Anyways, i'll be sitting for my exam tomorrow. Wish me luck, luck and more luck! More updates once my exam is over.

Keep Your Hands Off My Girl

2007-07-09T11:34:00.000+08:00

Yes, i like to see beautiful women.

Those with the right size boobs and a tight bum. Not too big, not too small. Just nice.

Especially women who knows how to appreciate themselves. The way they potrayed themselves in public. Their sweet smile and the way they laugh. Not those kinda laughter which you can hear at pasar malam. No-no. This is more like a lullaby at night.

I like those who are confident when they are chairing a meeting regardless of how many men in the board room. Those who are knowledgable in every aspects and you can bring her to any functions because she can fit into any. Just start an intelligent conversation, sure they will respond to you.

If i'm a man, i'll go for a tall lady .. yeah coz i'm tall!

She must be voluptous and fit, in order for me to hold her tight when we dance ..

Intelligent, coz for me that's sexy enough ..

Looks ... i want those sharp features so that my future kids will inherit our good looks together ..

The way she dressed up, that's very important because i'm gonna take her to functions and parties ..

Don't try to introduce me to Scarlet, Angie or Ms. Alba. I prefer Jessica Biel. Take a look at GQ magazine. She is smokin' HOT!

.. 'Pretty woman, walking down the streets.. pretty woman' ...(from the soundtrack of Pretty Woman)

But the thing is, i'm not a man!...

Too bad. *sigh*

On another occasion, we celebrated our CEO's birthday this morning. This is the Jivara choc cake that i specially ordered for her. It's a combination of dark and white choc+caramel.. yummylicious! but sorry i didn't touch this at all. Don't wish to ruin my diet or so. Apart from the birthday cake, there was nasi lemak, pulut kuning, malay kuehs

Oh.. i sprained my ankle again this afternoon during gym. I was on wheelchair. Thanks dude, jasamu dikenang selalu!

Here's my lady! I'll see you tonight sweets! :)

In The Name Of Love

2007-07-05T10:52:00.000+08:00

I'm doing this for charity. This is for Darul Izzah Orphanage, Bangi. From Idham down to fellow bloggers ... until sis Ween and Ayaq Masak tagged me!

For each meme done, RM127 will be contributed to the home. Come, let's join in!

The meme is about completing AT LEAST seventeen out of twenty seven. You may copy those in BLUE and put it on your blog fellas..

A person is only as good as.. the person sitting next to them! Ha.. ha..

Friendship is always .. treasured by me

To love is to .. give and share, but never ask for anything in return

Money makes me .. go WILD!

I miss .. the moments that i've spent with my late grandpa. He thought me a lot about life.

My way of saying i care is by .. writing a small lil' notes and leave it under the pillow.

I try to spread love and happiness by .. spending quality time with my family and friends.

Pick the flowers when .. you feel gloomy.

To love someone is to .. accept his hi&lo.

Beauty is .. very subjective to me.

When i was thirteen, what i remember the most was .. putting on my braces and i looked damn ugly!

When i was twenty one, i remember .. doing a charity event at the old folks home.

I am most happy when .. i can donate some parts of my earnings to the orphanage. Make the kids happy.

Nothing makes me happier when .. i take my grandma for a walk in the park on weekends.

If i can change one thing, i will change ..the education system in our country.

If smiles were .. up in the sky, then i .. shall grasp it in my hands.

Wouldn't it be nice if we could .. together, hand in hand, say no to poverty?

If you want to .. have coffee with me, then you have to.. email me.

Money is not everything but .. it is a necessity in life.

The most touching moments i have experienced is .. when i saw a young child and a woman, searching for a shelter during a rainy day. The old woman put a scarf on the child's head and she was drenched. My heart cried, i walked to the door and invited them into my office. At first they were a bit hesitate, but after a while they agreed. I offerred them a nice comfy sofa, two cups of tea and we talked.

I smile when .. i can hold a baby in my arms.

When i am happy, i..will sing to myself, eventhough i'm right in my office. My boss and colleagues like it!

If only i don't have to .. stayed back so late in my office, then i.. rather go back home

The best thing i did yesterday was .. going to the gym and spent 2 hours there!

If i ever write a book, i will give it this title .. 'The Life & Times of a Shopaholic Fund Manager'

One thing i must do before i die is .. write a will.

Doing the meme, i feel like .. a new person now.

I guess these people should join in the fun too!

----> sarcy, M.I.S.S.Y, tiena, cutiepie, may, angel, zewt, kuE and ytxis

*Wednesday's Trade Flows: Net foreign buying on selective property, banking, construction, and plantation stocks.

**Today's Market Outlook: KLCI is likely to trade range bound with upside bias.

Why Must You Leave Me?

2007-07-03T10:28:00.000+08:00

Just got back and received this heartbreaking news from mom.

My new maid went back to Surabaya yesterday as her son was admitted to the hospital.

'Bik, i will miss your fried mee hoon on sunday morning'

and your smile .. *sobs*

Tender Is The Night

2007-06-28T19:45:00.000+08:00

I've been waiting for this time to come ... am looking forward since the beginning of the month. I don't wanna wait, no more. The time has come. This is my chance.

No, no i'm not talking about Transformer which starts screening today, although i can't wait to watch the movie though.

I'm going off tomorrow morning. My bags are packed. I've loads of gifts with me to pass to my derest friends+my inhaler. Ha ha ...

H.O.L.I.D.A.Y -------> this is what i want for now. Nothing else.

Be back soon, i promise you.

**Update: KLCI is likely to recover taking cue from Wall Street closing overnight.

Ada Ubi Ada Batas

2007-06-27T09:18:00.000+08:00

*Warning: This is a frustrated+angry entry. Don't blame me after this. Blame it on him.

Referring to the previous entry, my punching bag for now is .....

The 'kedi' guy ...

I've a solid reason why he should be one. Continue reading please.

Last friday, i was ordered by him to go to the High Court. He wanted to renew his road tax but couldn't do so as he has to show JPJ the receipt of the summon as proof of payment. This summon was last year, somewhere in September. Luckily he paid the summon long before but he lost the receipt. My task was to get the receipt from the court.

With my shocking pink baju kurung, me and another girl marched towards the new high court building at Jln Duta. It is a huge building and we kinda lost. Asked this one makcik, she gave us this direction. The second makcik, another direction. So which and which we should follow lah? In the end, we pandai pandai sendiri lah ...

How we pandai pandai sendiri? We saw this one traffic police sitting on a chair, enjoying his ciggies. I told myself, this could be the place.

'Bang, tumpang tanya kalau i nak ambik resit pembayaran dekat mana?'

Abang polis started to sengih.

'Tempat dia kat sini. Masalah apa tu dik?'

I shoved him the letter from the 'kedi' guy.

'Adik masuk dalam and jumpa pegawai'

Both of us went inside. It is a court and there were 2 lawyers and two police officers sitting at a long table. Eh, as if we are here for the hearing?

I talked to the police officer on the left.

'Ni sapa ni?'

He pointed at the copy of IC enclosed together with the letter.

'Encik kedi ..'

'Kenapa kamu tak suruh dia datang sendiri? Hantar wakil pulak'

Aaahhhh..

'Takpelah, kamu tunggu diluar kejap. Kami akan cari fail'

We waited outside, sitting at the long bench. Imagine the bench that people used to wait outside the court. We gotta wait almost 80 mins.

Shucks. Bangang. Benci!.

Those two lawyers came out for a puff. The big fat guy were murmuring something to the chinese lawyer. At first i couldn't really hear what he was saying.

Cantik menarik tertarik kau memang da bomb ..

And he jeling me. I jeling him back.

If those words were meant for me, good. I'm a bomb. I can bomb you anytime you fatty ass!

The girl's mobile rang. It was the 'kedi' guy. Who else?

She talked sweetly to him. She's that kinda person. Always wanna kipas the' kedi' guy. I don't understand.

'You nak Sheryl hantar resit to your brother's office? Bila?'

WHAAAAAAAAAAAAT? Can you repeat it one more time? Just ONE MORE time please?

I told her directly that i've a discussion right after this. I have to be back a.s.a.p!

Bet he overheard what i was saying to the girl that and he asked me to keep it first. Closed case.

At 4pm, 'kedi' called.

'Can you call Mass and ask whether she's around now?'

'And?'

'Please, please do me a favour babe... send the receipt to her by today? Pleasssse?'

Arggghhhh.....

Why me???

Does he qualify to be my punching bag? Of course he is.

Hehe.. i should punch him yesterday while he was sleeping in the car ... with his mouth wide open!

Get ready for some ass kicking session!.

He should be my punching bag!

2007-06-25T09:59:00.001+08:00

If all else fails, punch him in the mouth. What are they going to do? Fire you?

Nah, i don't think so. Don't worry.

(story to be continued within this week before i go on a long holiday, so stay tune!)

*But i won't punch these 3 gentlemen, especially the one in the middle ...

Talking Over Sushi

2007-06-19T09:15:00.000+08:00

I was having sushi with a dear friend today when we came across this topic.

'What do you look for in a husband?'

Err..

Errr..

Errrr..

*sumbat lagi satu kanimaki into my mouth*

*sipping my hot green tea, just to divert the attention actually*

'Hey, you there?'

'Yup, i'm here in front of you ..'

There are only 2 things you should consider before marrying that someone.

1. Make sure he/she has no father or mother (in order not to suffer/quarrel with your future in laws). Orphan.

2. If he/she has siblings, make sure that they are married, financially independent and better stil, have their own lives. Mind their own business, to be exact. Not those kind that likes to make a 'surprise visit' to your house every now and then. If they are living overseas, you're one lucky devil.

Anyone fit the bill? Raise your hand please.

*Note to self: I want to have a small family but not now.

Rain On Me

2007-06-14T11:13:00.000+08:00

I like when it rains. No, no don't get me wrong. Doesn't mean that i love to see the 'heavy crawl' on the road when it rains, that contributes to my migrain!. But the feeling during rainy days especially when i'm driving back home from my office and it started to rain. The sound of tik, tik, and tik... on the car window.

Automatically, all the memories will be replayed. Keep on playing without a pause. If i don't put it to a stop, i think i can go nuts. I know we should put all the past behind, buried them properly. I know i've moved on but there are certain things that i'm still holding on to ..

Don't hate me. I never ask for this, lil' one .. you'll understand someday .. that someday ..

From a nerdy student in school who doesn't think of anything except to excel in her studies and get a ticket to the uni. From a happy go lucky girl who takes life easily and nothing to worry at all. From a young woman who easily fall in love with the wrong man, whom she thought that was her prince charming. Heartbroken, she eased her pain by concentrating on her career. Career is on top of her list. She woke up one morning with full of strength .. i thank God for that.

I still can remember mom scolded me when i was playing in the rain with my childhood friends. Being a stubborn 7 year old girl, i didn't bother to listen to her. She dragged me back into the house and asked me to take a shower. I didn't listen to her and the next morning i was down with flu.

I was left at a restaurant by someone after we had a row. My mistake i didn't carry my wallet, there was only my house keys and my cellphone. He left just like that, without sending me back home. No choice, i had to walk in the rain that evening with a broken heart. I cried .. why did he left me? It's better to feel sorry now or never ..

*sobs* (Sorry if i'm being emo today.. can't help it) ..

It's still a long journey to go. I hope the sea is not too rough for me. Give me a chance.

'What happens to the dreams we used to share?'

'I threw it in the dustbin!'

I looked up to the sky. You think i'm that stupid? Sorry, i'm not. I'm smart. I can even kick your butt to. Hahaa..

You know what fellas? When i'm down, really, really down, what will i do?

I like to feel the rain pouring down on my face .. and i'll feel much better.

Say goodbye to yesterday.

*I don't mind having him at home during rainy days .. hehe, i'll always adore this man!

*******************************************************

15 June 2007

A very HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my dear friend, Arlyn!

Today is your birthday

And I hope all goes well

I know i'm not with you today

But i can make this day 'special' for you, via the internet,

Each day with you in my life,

Is one day i would live over and over again

You make me so happy,

And my life would not be complete without you.

There are so many things I want to tell you

The most important is, I love you

You are my ebst friend,

And no one can ever change that sweets.

We may fight or argue a bit,

But never for more than two minutes

I love the way you get so angry with me

That in the end you just laugh and smile

I have always wanted to tell you how

I love your smile, there are many different ones

I couldn't dare list them all

And now as this poem is slowly coming to an end

I just want you to know that

Even though sometimes I get a bit overexcited

And hug just a lil' too hard

I want you to know that deep down inside

There is always a special place for you in my heart.

Babe, thanks for my being my friend. You're simply the best!

Do You See Me?

2007-06-12T14:31:00.000+08:00

I see many happy faces around me and i smiled back at them.

Yes, i need a good hug. You deserve to be happy.

Smile.

Makes Me Wonder

2007-06-08T11:32:00.000+08:00

I almost forgot about the Bloomberg training yesterday until one guy called the office.

'Hi, may i speak to Ms. S?'

'I'm sorry sir she's on leave till next week'

'What about Zaki?'

'He's out for a meeting'

'Hmm... Ms. Sheryl?'

'Yes, it's me.'

'Oh, thank God. Alright i just call to confirm about your attendance for today's training'

'Yup, be there at 12'.

Tepuk dahi. Macamana boleh lupa ni lah?

Luckily i was not alone. Zaki at the very last minute managed to join me. As usual, i became the macha of the day coz he is so lazy to drive his car. Lazy bum you!

We reached the training centre five minutes to 12. Thought we were already late but we were among the first to arrive. Lunch was provided by them. I went to the pantry to check out the food.

Yikes!

Mati lah ini macam. How now?

There were plastic containers of delicious nasi lemak together with chicken curry perfectly lined up on the table. No other food except for tidbits.

Why did you do this to me? Sampai hati!

By the way, i'm still on diet. No more pasta or any carbo food for me. Cereals for breakfast, garden salad for lunch and fresh fruits or soup or quaker oats for dinner. And i started hitting the gym regularly. No other excuses to skip gym unless i'm having my PMS. I'm living in a healthy lifestyle now.

'Just eat lah, only for today. It doesn't hurt you pun', Zaki told me from behind. He was sipping his coffee. Both of us are coffee addict and party people.

'Who says so? You don't know lah..'

'You nak kurus apa lagi ni? Dah kurus pun tu...'

You sure i dah kurus ke? You must be kidding me. I need to shed more kilos before i go to Singapore. Before i resign from my current job. Before i go to the States. Before Christmas. Before everything lah.

When i first started my diet, my friends at work were kinda shocked. Many assumptions were made. They thought that i will tie the knot soon (what? oh no!). Nak kawin baru nak kurus lah, camtu?

Back to the course. Ok, i admit i had that nasi lemak with an unhappy heart. Terpaksa! Never finished it up, except for the vege and anchovies (my favourite). I drank cuppa to make me stay awake during the session. I always make it a point to sit in the front row regardless of me being a tall woman. For me, the advantage is that it is much easier to throw questions to the facilitator coz i'm a person who likes to ask this and that if i don't know. I'm a person who will not hesitate to say 'sorry, i don't know this', rather than to say 'oh, i know this' but in the actual fact, i know nothing on that subject.

I looked at the slide in front of me.

It says..

"This course will cover:-

Creating and editing a portfolio;

Analyzing a portfolio;

Generating a portfolio reports;

Creating a portfolio index.

Sounds interesting. We were given our own terminal each, see the photo above. But the facilitator was way too fast. As if he was doing his own work. As if he was in his own world. I turned out to be like a lipas kudung. Tried to catch his speed apart from the noise that came from a guy on my right. He was busy munching his food and chips as if he is attending a birthday party. Luckily there was no balloons. If i could find one, i'll definitely give it to him.

Overall the course was good. But not the people. Don't you ever wish to talk to them because they don't give a damn about you. Be prepared to mind your own business.

Why do some people have so much airs in them?

Update!

"HAPPY 2ND ANNIVERSARY" to my sexy amoi, CuTiE PiE and hubby AnGcHaI!

A Happy Marriage

One of the oldest institutes around,

Called marriage,

Where can the answer to a happy marriage be found?

Sometimes you feel like a baby in a carriage.

I'm sure all marriages have their ups and downs,

Sometimes getting back up could be a challenge,

Because after fighting you feel like such a clown,

Somehow though you just have to manage.

The society that we live in promotes so much stress,

We need the food, clothing and paying the rent,

When the average income is usually less,

Then the paycheck arrives and it's already spent.

I guess the answer is the wife needs L.O.V.E,

While the husband needs respect,

That is what He says who lives Above,

Instead of going after each other like an insect.

It does take a lot of work for a marriage to grow,

And to watch it blossom is great to see,

When the love between a man and a woman just flow,

The marriage itself just grows and grows like a big sequoia tree.

Last Weekend With Budak Comel

2007-06-04T09:40:00.000+08:00

Meet the new faces of Emporio Armani's models..

No wonder lah EA chose us to be their spokesperson right? Hahaaa.. we look good in our shades!

Meet my good friend, budak comel. We had lunch together@ Dome last weekend. Just the two of us.

Eh, budak comel and me have plans to go to the States together and work there. We should apply for our green card now. Tiena, you joining us tak babe? *wink*

Oh, just can't wait to go to Temasek by end of this month. GSS, here i come!!!

Hehe.. guess i'll die another day...

*sheryl starting to dance like Maddie in Die Another Day's clip*

Happiest Birthday to CK!

2007-06-02T01:12:00.000+08:00

A sister is the one who makes life easier to live.

Whom you can share our likes and dislikes with,

She is the one who tells is her vast secrets and feelings,

And asks us to do the same,

She makes us feel comfortable when we are sad,

She guides us the right way when we are bad,

She is more than any word can tell,

She holds us when we tend to fall,

She comes to know our problems through our eyes,

She is of course naughty but wise,

She is my life's sunrise,

We should always make oneself full

of these qualities to be a sister,

And my Sister, you are the most beloved to me,

As you can care so much for me!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU SIS!

With all my love,
sheryL

Yihaaaaaaaaaaa!

2007-06-01T09:48:00.000+08:00

I'm sooo into Heroes, like any other people eventhough i always missed to watch the series! Dammit! Why lah i always lupa one? Hmmm... now i've to download the series from the Net.

Saw this quiz at Des, thought wanna give it a try and see what's in store for me.

Yihaaaaaaaaaaaaa....

Your Score: Simone Deveaux

You scored 58 Idealism, 41 Nonconformity, 33 Nerdiness

You think you can paint the future. Fine, paint one without me.Congratulations, you're Simone Deveaux! You are a loving, dedicated person with a variety of creative interests. You may however, fall in love a little too easily. Your best quality: You are a romantic Your worst quality: You are a romantic

Link: The Heroes Personality Test written by freedomdegrees

Tell me, izzit good or bad?